Putting Yourself Out There

I can't emphasize enough how much that sucks, to be honest. We take our hearts, bare it out and end up hurt. The punch in the gut. The feeling of never being good enough. The hope is gone and all you're left with is the knowledge that you are meant to be alone. 

Putting yourself out there is just as gut wrenching and scary as it is uncomfortable. I was happy in my shell, I was fine being alone and in my bubble. Why? I didn't even want to go. Now, I will live with this rejection. The newfound pain that I didn't even ask for. Why? Why did I do this? It sucks really bad and I don't think I can take this.